Why Japanese?

The Largest Unreached People Group (Joshua Project, 2005)

Only 0.04% Christians!

Annual Suicide Rate: >30,000

100-300 new religion registered each year (Operation World, 2000)

The battle is fierce, Time is SHORT! Please RESPONSE, Please PRAY!!!



Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts

Thursday, August 14, 2025

Walking Together in the Father’s Heart

I have always struggled with communication.

Sometimes I don’t know how to explain myself, or my work. Words feel too small for the depth of what I see and feel.

One of my closest friends is a hikikomori. Without him, I don’t think the idea of a café that allocates resources for socially withdrawn people would ever have been born. God has used him in countless ways to shape this ministry—sometimes directly, sometimes quietly, in ways neither of us expected.

We circle the same truth, but speak in two different dialects of meaning.
Mine is shaped by a multicultural, public health–psychosocial lens.
His is rooted in a Japanese cultural and linguistic frame.

Our “gap” is not about values at all—it’s about framing.
When he hears “research,” he pictures cold data manipulation.
I can’t blame him. Once, I thought the same.

But for me, “research” isn’t pulling people apart into numbers. My research is my work—it’s the practice of deeply listening, noticing what is said and unsaid, and weaving those threads into a picture that helps people see themselves more clearly. It’s not separate from the human connection—it is the human connection, held up to the light through careful analysis.

Yes, I categorize keywords, patterns, and feelings. On the surface, it might look like turning people into numbers. But those numbers are only scaffolding—temporary frames that hold the pieces together while I see the whole story emerge. Each fragment keeps its meaning, and when joined, the picture appears: rich, human, and utterly unique.

He once helped me organize tape transcriptions. He didn’t see how that task could help my work. But to me, it was a deep kindness. By freeing me from hours of mechanical labor, he gave me the space and confidence to gather the subtle threads—to listen for the ma, the spaces between words where truth often hides. Precise transcripts make analysis possible, and analysis is my way of making the invisible visible.

Because in the end, my goal is never to take something away from people. It’s to give them back a clearer mirror—so they can see their own patterns, their own strengths, their own beauty.


The Bigger Picture

This is more than professional practice. It’s a calling.
Every conversation, every listening moment, every pattern recognized is part of the Father’s work of restoration. He listens to the words and silences of our lives, gathers the broken fragments, and gives us back a wholeness we couldn’t see on our own.

The café, the research, the careful listening—they are all streams flowing from the same source: the Father’s heart for the lost, the withdrawn, the unseen. In His Kingdom, no one is too hidden to be known, no story too fractured to be pieced together.

And so, I need you my friends. I want to welcome you to join me in this journey.
Different eyes, different words, but the same mission: to make the invisible visible, and to hold up a mirror that reflects the image the Father sees.

May the Lord calls you, bless you, and hold you. 

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Test of Commitment and Love

My heart burst out of joy as I received the letter of offer for the dormitory this morning! I felt it was God just purposely made it that way, so to show me alongside this journey, there will be others to walk together, and getting INVOVLED.

The offer had not been made until someone being my advocate, organizing, helping to raise concern about this poor girl who have no place to stay, getting people who are willing to host me, then others came by to offer shelter and care. And then added on a further disappointment on the terrible condition of the residence house which challenged us to think of an alternative stay till January.

I have a strange feeling that if it was not the invitation being made by L. and C. for me to extend my stay with them; and the willingness and openness of Uncle T. to host me in earlier while other friends are coming to stay in Louisa's place next week yesterday evening, the offer will still delay.

It's strange to tie these together, but as I remember the promise He made, "The Church is coming in!" I felt this is what He meant. To show me that I'm not alone, and His family is going to care for me. Put it another way, it is also TEST of commitment and love.

It is not only about Methodist International for this chapter, but also the members of Full Gospel Assembly and Heart4Japan. I received many notes of prayers offered, love gifts and encouragement from all over, and God certainly remember all those who were involved. I just feel that He is strengthening the tie, and cleansing His temple... God, help me! Forgive me! and lead me on!

Friday, October 05, 2007

TALK, WALK

As encouragement always being accompanied by discouragement, and discouragement being accompanied by encouragement, I guess what God is training us to, is to tune our mind and focus to His goodness and Faithfulness, also to learn how not to be distress in disappointments.

Many times, the disappointments do not come from the enemies and nonbelievers, but the fellow believer who had TALK more than WALK. Often, someone you trusted for the relationship that we have in Christ, promised you one thing, and turn out to be an empty one.  And when this happens, both side will have a different story. I guess, we need to repent!

It's not the time to compare what I had sacrificed or what you had done, nothing that we do can outgive God. We give it willingly in God, it's out of  love that we give. I know people who read this will probably agree, but do check our hearts as we agree. Do not be hypocrite. Repent if we hold resentment of what we had given.

Let's the people who joined Heart4Japan WALK more than TALK. Constantly check our hearts for what we do.

The good thing about having JESUS, is not that we will become a good person, nor we will do the right thing. But it is about having HIM, we will not be affected even in the stormy wind. And that takes TRUST, and ACTION! In the midst of storm, JESUS commanded the wind to stop. When the multitude were hungry, JESUS fed them. When the disciples were hungry, JESUS allowed them to take the grain on a Sabbath. When Peter fell into the water, JESUS extended His hand. When Peter could not catch a single fish, JESUS gave the direction. When the leaper needed healing, JESUS touched him. So much more....... If JESUS is here today, what do you think HE will do? Aren't we JESUS followers?


Stop BRAGGING, I urge you. But Start DOING!

Thursday, September 20, 2007

PAIN

Lately, there is a constant fear that grips me. When it comes, I can't sleep, I can't rest, I can't think of any other thing else.

The fear of going back to Hong Kong.

The fear of not having raise financial support before I leave.

The fear of not having raise prayer partners before I leave.

The fear of having ministry partners who SPEAK more than they DO.

The fear of not having accomodation when I reach Hong Kong.

The fear of going to the academic to ask for deferment of school fees payment.

The fear of seeing my professor to negotiate on my dissertation of Hikikomori.

The fear of looking for accomodation.

The fear of not having money to pay the rent.

The fear of hunger.

The fear of loneliness.

The fear of not having money for transportation.

The fear of being long away from home.

The fear of not having enough data for the research of Hikikomori.

The fear of getting involve things beyond focus.

The fear of neglecting people who need a fresh touch of the Lord.

The fear of neglecting people who need a pair of listening ears.

The fear of meeting people who put false hope in me.

The fear of left behind bills to pay.

The fear of meeting hollow faith person in Heart4Japan.

The fear of blank promises.


The feeling is so contrast while compare with previous year as I stepped out with a simple faith. It was by faith that Abraham obyed when God called him to leave home and go to another land that God would give him as his inheritance. He went without knowing where he was going. (Hebrews11:8) Now I begin to understand why He had always led me step by step. He never revealed His whole plan to me. It is always a step of faith that brought me closer, a step of obedience that brought me to the next door. I guess that is what it needs to be done. I remembered someone told me, if God would had revealed to you His whole plan, perhaps you will be so fearful that you wouldn't be able to step out for it.

and Yes, now I understand. Because I am going back to the same place, and because I had experienced sorrows and difficulties, and for worse I discovered my weaknesses and my unworthiness in times. Once I thought I had lost my faith. But now, I know, it is not about faith. I still trust that the Lord will provide all my needs. I still trust that the Lord will lead me through. I still trust that He will never leave me or forsake me. And He said, "Heart4Japan is MY ministry!" Yet, fears greet me.

Or to be exact, these are not fears, but PAIN......

I love the Lord. I don't want to miss the train of REVIVAL in Japan, yet I'm tired of being Zorro. I wish to move together with a team of people who love the Lord, who are committed, who are willing to serve. Walking together in this journey, encouraging each other, praying alongside for each other! There are so few......

George Verwer said, "Finance seems to be the greatest obstacle..... the real obstale is a lack of love, faith and biblical commitment." And that is piercing to my ears. The greatest needs in the missions field are always PEOPLE and FINANCE. We can have PEOPLE, but no FINANCE; or we can have FINANCE, but no PEOPLE; sometimes BOTH.

Yet, I had also learned. Disappointment in evangelism can often be God's appointment to teach us smething greater and something better. Great biblical, moutain-moving faith does not happen without doubts, struggles and discouragement or even sin. While I stand aginst the fiery dart of discouragement, I believe we all need to repent and turn from all that is hindering us from doing God's will in our day, repent from our unwillingness to pay the price!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Endo - Cry of Kichijirou

Somehow, I kept thinking of Endo Shusaku. Perhaps I was influenced by Ramone and Shane after a short discussion through emails recently. Well, it's not fair to blame it on them :-) Endo is always a topic of interest for me, especially when it comes to Japan, and her perspective of Christianity.

But rather than go deep into it, I just can't hold myself but to record a brief thought I have at this moment.

What Endo was writing was a cry of Luke18:13, "And the tax collecctor, standing afar off, would not so much as raise his eyes to heaven, but beat his breast, sayig, 'God be merciful to me a sinner!'"

I wonder, aside of what the perspectives that Endo had drawn conclusion in his book, the main struggle in Endo was the cry of Kichijirou. "God be merciful to me a sinner!" We all need that, don't we?

Monday, May 07, 2007

Meanings

Must a Christian be a Creationist?

What is Faith?

Are we fulfilling or are we limiting?

Is finding evidence against faith?

What is the foundation of my faith in Christ?

Sometimes I thought I have all the answers. Sometimes I know I don't. But I do constantly check myself with these questions. Christianity is about a relationship with Christ, a reconciliation with God, a way to Heaven. What does Heaven mean to me, or Christ, or God? What does relationship means to me, or reconciliation?

These are important questions.

When we talk about Jesus, when we witness, we should never assume that the preacher and the hearer have the same perceptions. Often, the preacher and the hearer have totally opposite direction. What does Jesus mean to us? What does Jesus mean to others? That should be a question to ask, a mind to bear.


Presuming all that we know is the most authentic and the best, is always the beginning of a mistake.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Mini Version

I always sense and believe that Hong Kong is an image of Japan, mini version. And Hong Kong is an example for mainland China. South Korea no doubt is copying Japan too.

It is important that we see it in that way with our spiritual eyes!

I remember Ps Andrew with so much passion towards China said this to me, "I believe that God is calling China churches to Japan following the footsteps of Korean churches. Japan is our Samaritan brothers." that certainly encouraged me. "By finding the key to unlock the spiritual block in Japan, might lead to the key to unlock the spiritual block in China and Hong Kong!"

Yeah, the
key
! What is the key?

The key to Japan might be the same key to Hong Kong? Japan leads to Hong Kong? Hong Kong leads to Japan? Which key comes first? How about South Korea and North Korea?

There are still much to be pull out and put together. We shall learn and share in the process!

Friday, March 02, 2007

希望

“我们所可以自慰的,想来想去,也还是所谓对于将来的希望。希望是附丽于存在的,有存在,便有希望,有希望,便是光明。如果历史家的话不是诳话,则世界上的事物可还没有因为黑暗而长存的先例。黑暗只能附丽于渐就灭亡的事物,一灭亡,黑暗也就一同灭亡了,它不永久。然而将来是永远要有的,并且总要光明起来;只要不做黑暗的附着物,为光明而灭亡,则我们一定有悠久的将来,而且一定是光明的将来。” ~ 魯迅

Sunday, November 12, 2006

Perceptions affects our behavior and most often results in wrong judgments

Learning about my naiveness, I found that I had wronged my late-aunty many times with poor judgment based on my perceived "sound knowledge" about her condition in health and mental being. The "sound knowledge" is base on personal experience, the professionalism in certain area. And so often, I was misled by biases, and perceptions. We need to learn that there is no absolute truth except Jesus Christ. The verse in James 4 turns into a stronger light, and God is leading me to enter another dimention to show me my inequity. I thank God for my aunty's salvation, and I believe that she is now healthy and loved in heaven. The sorrows turned into joy, the bitterness of being wrong (In fact, she had never shown bitterness towards my wrong perceptions towards her). It was love that supported her all the while to love me. And I based on my own perception, took her love in my own view without giving full consideration towards her.

It seems justifiable because "we need to think of ourselves". There is always a benchmark of "You had tried your best!", "You done enough!" My late-aunty and I had good relationship, we loved each other and that could be witnessed. Yet, I cannot tell lies. I had certainly wronged her in many ways, many times. With my perceived observation. And these perceived observation and judgment sounded so "valid". The validity could never be 100%, now I learn that even you are quite 99% sure about a hypothesis, you will still have 1% of chance of being wrong. In statistic, the higher the confidence level, the less precise you are!

Doctor could always be wrong in their diagnosis, and healing is often in God's hand even you go through extensive treatments! And life or death, troubles or confidence would not be always be equal to our beliefs nor our faith in God. We should know this by our hearts now, but yet in ministry we always overlook. It is like when we are in deliverance service, a person who is full of tears, we tend to take him or her as confessing or being acknowledge of evil past. Not likely, that could be tears of joy. When someone hold his or her fist tight, it could be a spiritual warfare, it could also be a dedication to strive for the Lord!

I think that is why God wants me to study public health before I enter Japan. He is giving me a new light in the scripture, and challenging me to learn that I had not gave all that I had eventhough I thought so.

Our behavior is a reflection of what we perceive. It is perspective that induce judgment. We can make many repeated mistakes, when we face problems on the field. I.e. Japan. We made judgment before we knew it, beware! Our perspective and biases could be so "biblical" in our eyes. My heart! Rejoice in God, keep Trust! Be guided and guarded by the Holy Spirit!

Lord, help me! I don't want to make such mistakes, because I feel the pain in wronging others, and apologies could be too hard in times. Help me to see through you, and speak through you. For my tongue is uncontrolled, and it speaks evil without me being able to catch it. Ignorance would be the major cause of this. Lord, give me the wisdom and love to love you and to obey you in truth and joy and peace!

Friday, November 10, 2006

Reality of Christ? or the presentation of Christ?

I disagree with Douglos in her opinion of risk in many areas, but I love some of her phrases that she used to depict Risk.

'The reality of danger is not at issue. The dangers are not only too horribly real, in both cases, modern and pre-modern. This argument is not about the reality of dangers, but about how they are politicized. This point cannot be emphasized too much '(1992:29)

I think people on the field could recognize this: it is not about how real is Jesus that the Japanese non-believers are concern about when making a decision to accept Christ. It is often not the reality of Jesus Christ, but about how He was presented and perceived in the social structure. And I see many workers struggle not to emphasize the point too much.

Other concerns that brought to bear in the ways of Salvation

I read this phrase in the book of RISK by Deborah. "The difference that is commonly observed between 'expert' and 'lay' judgments of risk is founded not in the fact that people cannot think in terms of probabilities, as some psychometric risk analysts have contended but rather that other concerns are brought to bear in the ways they judge risk. "

Would it be correct if I import the phrase to our term, "The difference that is commonly observed between Christian and non-Christians judgment of JUDGMENT (heaven and earth) is founded not in the fact that people cannot think in terms of probabilities, but rather that other concerns are brought to bear in the ways they judge heaven and earth."

You are welcome of feedback!

Rewrite the phrase again, it will be: "The difference that is commonly observed between Christian and non-Christians judgment of Salvation is founded not in the fact that people cannot think in terms of probabilities, but rather that other concerns are brought to bear in the ways they judge Salvation."

If this statement carries weight, then what are the other concerns are brought to bear in the ways? It might be useful in knowing them.


These concerns are essentially cultural rather than individual: 'individuals do not try to make independent choices, especially about big political issues. When faced with estimating probability and credibility, they come already primed with culturally learned assumptions and weightings' (Douglas1992:58)